Just In Case | Romey

I am not a risk-taker by nature. As a child, I always had a dime in case I needed to call home (boy, did I just date myself!); when I lived in the snowbelt, I never let the fuel  in my car get below the half-way mark in case I got stuck in a traffic jam in bad weather; now I always carry a charger in case my cell phone battery gets low.

Until a couple of weeks ago, I had some clothes in my closet that I was keeping in case I put on weight. When I first started working with Dr. Tim, my goal was to exercise as a form of stress relief. I needed to lose some weight, but I did not focus on that. However, there were days that I just couldn’t feel comfortable in my clothes. I put off buying things in a larger size until my discomfort outweighed my need to lose weight; then a strange thing happened: I couldn’t stand the thought of wearing the larger size. I talked to Dr. Tim about “moving to the next level.” It took several months, but I lost the weight; then the new clothes didn’t fit me any longer. In fact, I needed to pin the waists so that they wouldn’t fall off. I probably shouldn’t admit this, but I wore some things with pins for a while because it felt so good mentally to be wearing my “fat clothes.” Each time I put on something that was too big, it was validation of the effort that it took to lose the weight. No one was the wiser since I hid the pins with tops, jackets, etc. The novelty has since worn off, and I started thinking about buying things in a smaller size. The plan was to keep the big clothes in case I needed them some day. Then I decided that this “in case” was not a good and positive decision. I don’t want to get to a point where I need those clothes again—ever. Instead, I took them to the tailor to be altered. This allowed me to accomplish a few things: I removed the safety net of having an alternate wardrobe; I was being fiscally responsible because it felt like I got a whole new wardrobe for a fraction of what new things would cost; I was being environmentally conscious by reusing items that I already had on hand.

Now, in case I need a reminder of the past, I can wear one of the altered items and look forward to a healthier, happier me.